Visiting Por Por today and usually she criticizes my hair or whatever I'm wearing. Basically she never has anything good to say about me. But today she became really serious and said I am very smart. And if only I went to school.....I asked her how does she know? She said even as a child I was smart? Not sure how she figured that out. But hey, I'll take anything positive she has to say to heart.
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Wanted to share my visit today with a psychic recommended by a friend. And as most of you who knows me, it's not my first psychic experience. I've been known to visit a psychic/tarot card reader/buddhist temple or two. And my friend knows I'm always up for new experiences. I brought my Mom's ring and a framed picture of me and Helen. Jocelyn gave it to me when she was going through Helen's things. I gave it to the psychic to see if he would be able to see/feel/hear either of them.
Brief summary of my reading: Mom came through very strong. Wanted to tell me she immediately became a guardian angel for me and my family. She is trying to help me help myself to find happiness. Wants me to be happy and doesn't want me to be so tough on life. Says I expect too much out of myself. Also, I pulled the "JOY' card which is the best card in the deck. The psychic interprets it that Mom and the other guides telling me to not be afraid of being happy. Embrace the joy! This is so interesting as all of you who have been following me on this blog knows how it's only been recently that I've been feeling some sense of happiness. That the self-imposed cloud of grief was finally lifting away. The psychic said he would never have guessed it by looking at me as normally Sagittarius/Dragons are happy people. The message he was getting all made sense after I told him what I've been going through over the last six years. Strangely he did not feel Helen coming through? So he had me pick 3 cards from a deck in which he said were direct communication from the person you're trying to hear from. Here are the cards: 1. I feel healthy and happy 2. I'm here helping you 3. We'll be together again Mind you, this is not what the psychic said...for you non-believers.....it's the cards I drew. This gives me great comfort to know that she is healthy and happy. She was good at hiding her illnesses when she was alive. And was not happy. In conclusion, the psychic randomly drew 4 more cards for me to take away from this reading: 1. family harmony 2. moving forward fearlessly 3. happily ever after 4. kindness I would say it was an amazing hour spent with this psychic. Today you would've been 72 years old! Wow, that's old :) I'm sending Dad down to Baltimore Thursday to celebrate his and your birthdays with Nancy and Brandon. Been reflecting alot lately about you and life in general. Meeting a lot of new people and making new friends - some whom I knew from way back when but never really connected for whatever reason.
Things to take away from my reflections: 1. never too old to make new friends or to try new things 2. life is too short (so cliche) so enjoy 3. letting go of past unpleasant experiences is harder than I thought. Still a work in progress but getting there 4. set lofty goals and expectations - put it out there! And it will come.... Mom, I've never had the faith that you've always had in me. I lost that somewhere along the way but I'm working on it. The only faith I do have is that you are watching over me and taking care of things. Thanks for being such a great role model. And I hope to do you proud. Visited Por last night as she was eating dinner. And I noticed the woman who sits across from her was very quiet and subdued. She is usually very talkative and always asks if I want some of her mushy dinner. She is very sweet. I watched an aide (never seen before) come and tried to feed her. Except the aide kept watching tv!! She would scoop up some food and hold it in front of the woman. But she was watching tv and wasn't feeding her. Even Por's roommate started yelling at the aide to feed the woman! After a few minutes, the aide walked away. So Por's roommate badgered the poor woman to feed herself. The woman seem really weak and could barely hold the fork. Por also chimed in and told the woman to feed herself. But the woman didn't seem to have the strength to do it. So I went over and tried to feed her. But she wouldn't eat. I felt so bad. I wanted to say something to the aide but was afraid she would retaliate against Por when we're not around. Oh well, I tried...
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