Was hanging out at a friend's summer house in Kennebunk, ME yesterday - gorgeous day! I had a choice of sitting on the beach packed with people or kayaking to a quiet private area. Hmmmm, considering I don't know how to swim.....but the thought of high tide and then cramming myself up against the sea wall with all these people?? I was also assured I won't drown. So I took my chances and kayacked! OMG, I can't believe I was so good at it! Not bragging but it was so easy! My friend was paddle boarding and led me to this little area that looked out to the ocean. It was perfect, sunny and breezy. Peaceful, just what I needed.
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Lots going on and feelings that I thought were resolved are re-surfacing. And even tho I'm 53 and should know what I'm doing...I am still learning. It's amazing when you open yourself to new people and experiences. But at the same time, I'm still holding on to old BS and need to identify it and try to take its power away. Or sit with it and see if it can teach me how to be stronger. Stole these thoughts from a friend.
So I booked a quick trip to West Palm Beach in a couple of weeks - to sit out on the beach to relax and to clear my head. Hope the weather cooperates?! My Dad and I were visiting Por Por and Lisa and Uncle Rob were there as well. Always nice to see Uncle Rob up and about. We left together and Lisa went to get her car. Before I even had a chance to help Rob, my Dad said "I got this" and grabbed hold of the belt thingy. It was nice to see my Dad's big brother's instincts are still there after almost 70 years! Here we are celebrating our nation's independence....yet I'm crying while driving to a friend's house for a bbq. Like wtf? Today I learned a friend's mom passed last Sat and they already held a private service. plus another friend's mom passed, her service will be next Monday. And never mind that it's the 2nd anniversary of Helen's passing. So thoughts of my Mom's passing come rushing back.
It's actually been awhile since I've cried over my Mom. I've managed to not to dwell on it But maybe it's good to feel sad about it once in awhile? Let it out and let it go? At least for the moment. It just means I miss her. Right? Well, whatever. I know Mom is ok however I deal with it. It's still a work in progress. |
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AuthorI'm fortunate enough to have an awesome job at a biotech company. I'm also blessed to have the bestest of friends in the world - from Castle Square, ATASK, and Jamie Club - you know who you are! Last but not least, I have a family that are always there for me. Categories |