I imagine this isn't anything new to anyone who has lost someone dear to them. But maybe with this realization I should stop trying to hide it and be strong. Cos lord knows, Mom is probably smoking her cigarette and looking down at me shaking her head. I know, I know.......
I've recently realized something since I learned of Yen's passing. I thought I was doing a good job of overcoming my grief but in reality all I was really doing was masking it. It's been a year and I still cannot get over it and miss her every day.
I imagine this isn't anything new to anyone who has lost someone dear to them. But maybe with this realization I should stop trying to hide it and be strong. Cos lord knows, Mom is probably smoking her cigarette and looking down at me shaking her head. I know, I know.......
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We lost our lovely friend this past week, Yen Pham who was the Vietnamese Advocate at ATASK. She fought a brave and courageous fight against ovarian cancer and I'm sorry I never got the chance to say goodbye. The last time I saw Yen was at my Mom's funeral. She and her husband attended despite the fact she was dealing with her own cancer journey. Every once in awhile, she would email me to check in and make sure I was ok.
A group of former ATASK employees (Agnes, Joyce, Helen, Nanda, Maryann, Karen & Lucille) attended Yen's wake. It was so heartbreaking when I saw her two young kids - Chloe (6) and Aidan (9). I remember when Yen was first pregnant! I also remember her being so sweet yet had no problems voicing her opinions. She was a great co-worker and I'm honored that she counted me as a friend. I'm dedicating Bye Bye to Yen - it's the song I play when I think of my Mom. The song is protected so I can't add it to this post. But here's the lyrics. It says it all. "Bye Bye" This is for my peoples who just lost somebody Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady Put your hand way up high We will never say bye (no, no, no) Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye As a child there were them times I didn't get it but you kept me in line I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes On Sunday mornings, and I missed you But I'm glad we talked through All them grown folk things Separation brings You never let me know it You never let it show because You loved me and obviously There's so much more left to say If you were with me today face to face [Chorus:] I never knew I could hurt like this And everyday life goes on like "I wish I could talk to you for awhile" Miss you but I try not to cry As time goes by And it's true that you've reached a better place Still I'd give the world to see your face And I'm right here next to you But it's like you're gone too soon Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye (Bye Bye [3x]) Bye bye And you never got the chance to see how good I've done And you never got to see me back at number one I wish that you were here to celebrate together I wish that we could spend the holidays together I remember when you used to tuck me in at night With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight I thought you were so strong You'd make it through whatever It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever [Chorus] (bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x]) Bye bye This is for my peoples who just lost somebody Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady Put your hand way up high We will never say bye (no, no, no) Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye |
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AuthorI'm fortunate enough to have an awesome job at a biotech company. I'm also blessed to have the bestest of friends in the world - from Castle Square, ATASK, and Jamie Club - you know who you are! Last but not least, I have a family that are always there for me. Categories |