I'm at the Miami airport waiting for my connecting flight back to Boston. There were 18 of us in Mexico celebrating a friend's 50th birthday. Also a couple's 28th anniversary. It was a little hectic cos it's such a large group. And the hotel sucked in their customer service, But overall, what matters the most are the friendships and love between everyone. No judgement or negativity, lots of laughter and some alcoholic drinks....I didn't drink as much as the last time but those Miami Vice drinks were AMAZING! I was happy to be part of the celebrations. Will post pics as soon as I can upload them. Stay posted.
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I know, I know, y'all are thinking what??? Met a friend for dinner and was invited to join him for an AA meeting. At first I was no way....but it seem like he really wanted the company?! I asked if the meetings were portrayed accurately in the movies and he said it was pretty close, I'm not going to lie, I was pretty nervous going. But what the hell, I didn't have anything to lose.
It was an open youth meeting....and I was blown away by listening to these young kids stories - their struggles, addictions, and some of them credit the meetings for keeping them on the right track. I felt so stupid and petty about my shit compared to these people. They have real problems and it's sad to hear. But they have such courage for attending and sharing their stories. And maybe these meetings are a lifeline to them?? My friend and I had a long discussion afterwards and I hope me going helped him a little? I don't know....but I am so glad I went. I experienced something new and different. Isn't that what life is all about? It may not be going to a new city or trying new foods. But I'm learning about other people and maybe I should shut up and stop complaining....Mom would approve of this. The family gathered at the nursing home to celebrate Por Por's birthday! Crazy that she is 96! She said pretty soon she'll be 100.... We also went to our cousin (not blood related) Phil's house to celebrate his son graduating from high school. There's a picture of my aunt Betty and her sister Jenny. Really good friends of my Mom.
I don't spend a lot of time reflecting on my life. But when I do have a free moment, I start wondering about everything that's happened - past relationships, current relationships, my job (how did I get so fucking lucky?) and of course my Mom's passing. And inevitably regrets and could-have/should-haves pop into my head. And I understand that I cannot go back and change anything so there's nothing I can really do. But I can make a conscious effort to not repeat those same mistakes or stupid actions.
With that said, I do have to say there is ONE regret I have and promised myself to never be in that position ever again. I paid a hefty price for that mistake and I cannot blame anyone except myself. Don't worry, I've moved on from it and no longer associate with anything/anyone from that time. I know that things happen for a reason - cliche? Yes, but have to believe that what's ahead of me will be the best to come. How could it not with all of my angels looking down at me. Especially the "Chief" angel who has always had faith in me. I cannot let her down! |
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AuthorI'm fortunate enough to have an awesome job at a biotech company. I'm also blessed to have the bestest of friends in the world - from Castle Square, ATASK, and Jamie Club - you know who you are! Last but not least, I have a family that are always there for me. Categories |